So I am really horrible at keeping a journal. I have been really good at keeping a journal for my little family on our family blog, documenting our adventures and the milestones of our baby O. Although I LOVE that blog, I don't feel comfortable sharing certain parts of my life on there. So, I decided to start this blog for just myself. I will keep this blog private, allowing only myself to see it. My goal for this blog is to see where I started, and how far I have come. I would like to set goals and write about the process of obtaining these goals. I want my little girl to look up to me. I want her to see me as someone who can "do hard things". By seeing this, I am hoping that she will see that she can also do "hard things". I also feel like writing these things down helps keep me accountable for my goals.
Today was my first day starting to train for a 10K in September. I have tried to be a runner several times since I graduated from high school, and I haven't ever been able to stick with it. This time though, I am determined. I am determined to be healthy. I am determined to have more self-confidence in myself. I am determined to find something that is competitive and fun for me. I am determined to do this because it is just for ME!
I think I have had such a hard time running before because I try to do too much too fast. I try to just bust out two miles without walking. When I realize that I am SO out of shape, I get embarrassed, frustrated, and just give up. In the back of my mind I am always thinking that, "I will do it later"or "I am too busy right now I will start when things slow down". But I have finally learned that things are never going to slow down. Life is always busy. If I don't start doing these things now, I will always be wishing and hoping and never putting anything into action.
So anyways... today I downloaded an app to help me train. I LOVED IT! This app has you run intervals. I only ran in 30 second intervals, and it was fabulous! 30 seconds is absolutely nothing, but it is a start, and I am ok with that for right now. I know that each week I continue to work hard that amount will get higher and higher. So for today I ran 2.8 miles in 41 minutes! Yay me! So here the journey begins! Today it is running... tomorrow who knows?? I'll take one goal at a time. :)
Goals
Starting Weight-153 (although I do not want to focus on weight, I would like to shed a few pounds... 140 would be good, but I want to focus more on getting healthy)
RUN as much of the 10K as I possibly can. But more importantly, if I have to walk a lot of it, I don't want to be frustrated. I am training for this in a little more than a month, I can only expect so much!
Love,
Me
